So, it's that time in every young cartoonist's career where life gets real. My freelance career is gradually becoming more steady, but is not yet fruitful enough to pay the bills. With my husband now out of work, and two little, incredibly energetic and incredibly exhausting kiddos running around the house, it's been more than easy to let the stresses take over.
So I'm just going to stop. No, not stop drawing, Heaven forbid. I'm just going to focus on being as positive, kind, and good as I possibly can. The world is pretty crazy right now, and I want to control the one thing I can: me. I'm also working even harder than that to balance my freelance work as well as focus on finally developing a storyboarding portfolio to transition into working in a studio. It's time. And I feel like I'm finally ready.
Perhaps it's the Positive Parenting class I've been taking that has given me some inner strength, or knowing that my mom is coming to town this week to help out for a couple of weeks, but I'm not going to lie. The last number of months have been a tough, exhausting battle. There have been many tears and are many days that I just want to curl up and do nothing but sleep. Which of course, is totally impossible, because, kids. And it's a difficult, lonely road that's being traveled, with both of our families living on the East Coast.
So I decided to challenge myself. For the next 30 days, I plan to post a few highlights of my day: something I'm thankful for, something that was a challenge, a lesson learned, and maybe some insights. Something short and sweet. I will also try to post a drawing to go with it. Lemons into lemonade and all that jazz, right?
I have no idea if anyone will read this, but as always I love to hear feedback. Sending hugs and happy vibes into the world!
And so it begins:
Something I'm Thankful For: My husband. Corny and utterly cliche I know, but he cheered me up and made me laugh so hard over the weekend, and took care of the kids last night so I could attend my monthly cartoonist meet up. He definitely earned a gold star or two over the last couple of days.
Challenge O' The Day: Exhaustion. Utter exhaustion. Submitted a proposal at 4 AM (#LifeOfAFreelancer) and am now paying for it all day.
Lesson Learned: It's easier to deal with exhaustion when you're proud that you spent your Sunday night at a fun meeting with your peers, ate dinner at 11:30 PM, spent an hour continuing an online course about Storyboarding, and knocked out a proposal for a potential client before the deadline. It's even easier knowing that if you can just survive the day, at night terrific friends are coming over for dinner to catch up.
Daily Insight: I always put too much pressure on myself regarding all my failures and "wrong decisions" that I've ever made. I'm determined to go with the flow more, and am working extra hard to forge a new path (both personally and professionally). I'm also making sure to set up plenty of rewards for myself along the way, such as a dinner tonight to catch up with friends we have not seen in far, far too long. After all, no work and all play makes this gal feel like an exhausted zombie who just wants to Hulk Smash everything in sight. And nobody loves THAT gal.